It’s funny how we hang onto so many “things” in life. About four months after moving into my place I was still unpacking, and that was no surprise to me or anyone that knows me. One night I came across some documents that brought a painful memory to the forefront of my mind. After several tears, I began to think, if things can have this kind of impact on me what are the people in my life doing to me? Much like things in life we have a hard time letting people go. Often we hang onto people at the expense of our health and well-being. People that may be in our lives or those that have already left, we grasp onto the tangible and the intangible for fear of letting go, loss or facing the inevitable truth. I couldn’t help but think that had I not kept those things I would not have felt the sadness that overcame me when they resurfaced. It is okay to forget some things; it is okay to let go. There are points in our lives and people that come into our lives that help teach us and mold us into who we are today. But that is all they are meant for; they are not meant to be carried on into our future. Letting go allows us to begin again. I had to ask myself, how many “things” am I carrying? How many grudges, exes, and regrets are keeping me from moving on? It was a tough realization that needed to be dealt with to free my mind and life of toxicities that were burdening me. Imagine the sense of freedom and free space in our minds if only we learn to let go.
I have recently taken on the responsibility of helping my niece start an aquarium. I used to help my ex-boyfriend with his 100 gallon tank and when I say help I mean picking out fish. All the really important stuff he did alone and I took enjoyment in seeing the fruits of his labor. Never the less, I was the one for the job when my niece decided she was going to take on this hobby. Since she was a beginner, her mom started her with a little tank, 1.5 gallons to be exact. At first glance I honestly felt bad for anything that was forced to live in such a small area. Once I realized she had not one but two fish living in that tank I knew we were going to need a bigger tank. So, we went shopping. We upgraded to ten gallons and added a candy cane frog. I remember thinking, while we were moving the old fish to the new tank, how happy they must be. Their world literally multiplied ten times its original size. There were plants added and more rocks…the possibilities were endless. As she began to think of all the new fish she could get I had to remind her that, although the tank is bigger, it is still tiny when compared to their normal habitat. One thing we were constantly told by fish experts was that they will only grow as big as the tank allows.
It is funny how easily that can be translated and related to our lives. If you stick a fish in a bowl, the limit to its life lies inside of that half gallon bowl. Now if you take that same fish and put it in a pond, the opportunity of life and growth is nearly limitless. It is far too easy for us to become stuck in the repetitive routine of daily life. If we confine ourselves to our comfort zone then we limit our own growth. Imagine the possibilities that await you in this vast world. Break free from the constraints of your comfort zone and embrace your true potential. Go get lost and find yourself.
I haven’t posted for awhile. It isn’t always easy to find the time to sit down and blog. Sometimes I find comfort in just journaling. Alas, ’tis the season to get back to habits. Habits that make me happy. It only seems fitting that I start with an update on the wonderful woman I work for. Since my last post… Read more →
“…you can describe a harsh lifestyle in your poems but sooner or later you will find it is time to move on. If you hang on too long the subject matter gets thin and tiresome…” I love Bukowski. There is so much truth to be found in his writing. Not all of us write to cope with pain. Some… Read more →